♥ Esparanza_lubz_Erick_R♥
Hip hop honey from Boise, ID
- age: In my teens
- member since: 6 months ago
- places: Okaland bay area
- day job: i work for hair and clothing line
about ♥ Esparanza_lubz_Erick_R♥...
This song is for my sister ur my best friend amanda ♥ i have a lot to say well i have a man his name is Erick and yea i love him alot and all and shit so yea i luv my lil sister names amanda and i love her so dang muchHere are some poems that i made for my baby wen we had problems
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Lord, I’m trying so hard not to give up its getting harder my days are just getting darker the road I am on is to lonely I cant give up but I’m getting weaker I’m trying to live life as it comes. Everyone is better off without me around no one needs me all I feel is this numbness taking over my body it’s already taken over my mind Slowly it’s taking over My heart and my soul. I promised myself that I wouldn’t pick up the blade ever again I won’t let myself do it. But it’s all I’m thinking of. Lord, Please help me stay Strong. So I can go on In my life, And be happy. Help me feel again ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ DReAmInG what is to dream while being wide awake when knowing nothing is going right yet a smile you fake when tracks of tears you tried to hide behind the wonderful world of lies the life of happiness is the one you lack yet to the people you perform the best act you walk out in joy and laugh and rejoice and when left in the dark … you have no voice deep deep in the tunnel that you feel you are in there a bit of light creeping in but even though you see the light you know that at the end … nothing will be bright so why bother on dreaming when you go to sleep why bother on wishing when a star in the sky you first see cause no matter how many tears you cry or how many prayers you pray…god cannot bring your love back from the dead… ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ I miss YOU!! I miss THE way YOU talk TO me, IT hurts MORE than A skinned KNEE. i MISS the WAY you SAY my NAME, now ALL i HEAR is DAMN shame. I miss THE way WE CUDDLED, now I would RATHER fall OVER a PUDDLE. I miss THE way YOU laugh; I KNOW you ARE my BETTER half. I miss THE way YOU pout, NOW im THE one WHO wants TO shout. I had ALL these FEARS, to LATE i ALREADY bursted INTO tears. I miss THE way WE kissed, WHY is IT that I feel DISMISSED. i MISS you SO much, I deserve A hard PUNCH. If YOU miss ME as MUCH AS I MISS you… WHEN we. Back GET TOGETHER. A love lost… ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ What would you say if i walked away? to live another life.. would i be stabbing you in the heart with a knife? i cant keep livin this lie… it would be like if i were to slowly die… I love you but i cant keep seein you with her.. and thats for sure.. i guess thats sayins right.. * Playaz only love you when there playin* how could i not leave? when all you do is diseave.. your my heart… but its time for a new start… Im tired of knowin you were with her.. when you could have been with me living so happily.. i treated you with respect and love like you were an angel sent from above… it took me awhile to see what was right from wrong.. i fell in love with you when you dedicated that love song… i used to pray to god for someone like you now i wonder why the hell he chose you.. i cherished every hug n kiss as if our last but now thats all the past… its time to leave you behind and say good bye and have another love at my side.. i deserve better than you.. ‘your telling me i cant get better.. id rather be single then live another lie with you pretendin to be happy not madwhen really im just sad.. i gave you my heart when all you did was tear it apart… i have to say good bye… i can live with the pain but a never a lie.. i hope your happy with her cuz ill never come back thats for sure.. when you call n say sorry.. ill just laugh and say your loss.. cuz im for real when i say im movin on… just know you were my first love now that lovez all gone.. n i new it all along…- BYE * ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ With you Babii since I met you, I’ve You’ve changed me so much,never been the same, But it’s only been for the best. What happened to you saying you loved me? Why did you have to leave me? My world is spinning out of control, and I can’t seem to keep going. I’m like a yo-yo, up and down because you come and go, I don’t know why I’m still here, I must be a masochist, Because I know you’re going to hurt me, But I keep coming back for more. But I see it in your eyes, When you tell me that you love me, I can see that you are being honest, Is that why I keep letting you hurt me? Is that why I can’t seem to let you go? Ever since I met you, I have began to see myself in a whole new light, I can breath with ease, I no longer want to end this life, and ever since I met you I suddenly feel beautiful, something I’ve never felt before. Never have I had confidence in myself, until the day you stepped into my life, and never have I had so much will to be alive, Never have I had reason to love myself, Until the day you started loving me. So babii I say this with all honesty, I love you more than life and death, And I feel like the luckiest girl alive, because I’ve never felt so alive, But now I feel better than ever, All because I’m with you.
